Ugh! I know this may not be an appropriate way to start a blog entry, but this is exactly how I feel. It is becoming a vicious cycle. I forget to eat all day so I end up pigging out at 10pm when I finally feel faint. I mean to go to sleep at 11pm, I lay down, get an idea, get back up and voila it is 3am. I swear I need to get my crap together! My mother keeps loving giving me advice to go to sleep when the kids go to bed and just wake up early and get my work done before they wake. Any of you fellow momopreneurs do this? That is the other thing, twitter and FB, and even this blog. I know I only have 9 people that follow me on here, not really sure why I am writing this except for the fact that it ends up feeling like free therapy. This is hard, like your first baby kind of hard, the constant "are you still alive because you are so precious to me" feeling, which would make sense to you if you were like me and checked to see if my first son was breathing about every 10 minutes of his first month of life. Something new seems to happen every hour with this company, so I am constantly checking its pulse- twitter, fb, emails, and voice mails.
So anyways, this is all very exciting but very scary. I have met some amazing women along the way that have helped me beyond belief. Sometimes I need a person that does not know me to tell me I am not a nut for doing this. But, of course they all have the same response, that this is going to be huge. This I think scares me more than them saying that I am a complete moron for wasting our hard earned savings on this idea. Why do I have such a fear of success right now. I mean, I want it, I would not be trying to accomplish these goals if I did not. But, I just wish I could flash forward to the second that I am either accepted or rejected by a person that actually would be in the position to buy my products.
Every decision is huge right now. We are designing and creating everything these next couple of weeks. Hopefully, our material will get final approval this week and we will write that gut wrenching check, but at least get started in production. By the way, the most frustrating part of this entire process, material. So then, the next week, I think I may take a stroll up to Arcata- another 6 hours, was thinking Friday, I will then finalize and approve all 7 of our garments. Still have woven logo tags, care labels, hang tags, promo, our exclusive pure butter, and so much more to approve and yuck, pay for! So thank you nine people that may or may not read this, I guess I should apologize instead of thank you.
Personal notes: Todd is getting his cast off on Wed. July 28!! Whoot whoot!! We will be back in business with water! This poor kid just wants a darn bath so bad. I can not imagine! He has been a trooper. And, Mr. Brett, he lost that front tooth that he broke when he was 2, it was black and I always hoped that would be the first to go, yipee. He has a bottom tooth that is loose now. We tried to use an episode of America's Funniest Home Videos in our favor, a kid that is whaling that it hurts, then the Dad yanks on the string and he says "dat didn't even hurt", yeah Brett was not having it, said he rather go to the Dentist. Oh well, it will fall out sometime, I see a lot of apples in his future. The twins are great, Alex can make it to the top of the stairs with me-- Yes, I am careful, just heard a cyber gasp from my mother! Aubrey is kinda mean actually, she beats us up big time, and scratches, growls too. So much for my sweet little princess.
Ok- back to work, feel better since I ended my therapy with talking about my kiddos, maybe I should go to bed. Oh, wait it is 10pm, guess what I forgot to do!?
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